Poem page four
Awakening
I`m afraid of my feelings, my hopes I hide within
Wounds I thought were healed now blaze and blister red
True thoughts through fear are left unsaid
So when I heard,"I`m single, I`ll hang a sign around my neck"
I hoped you`d pause one second and see that I am single too
I wanted to say, "What am I to you?"
I`d like to send you flowers and romantically pursue you
Sure in the knowledge I could win your heart
With strong will and true determination
But, in our midnight conversation
The perfect moment passed me by
My words were never spoken.
Memories of my past leave fear within my heart
But I want to say you`re beautiful
And I long to hold your hand; its shape I see has splendour
I want to kiss you and to hug you
But fear you`ll push me far away
This fear it makes me speechless; my limbs refuse to move
I`m afraid you`ll laugh, or tell me
I`m so "sweet" but you never thought of me "that way".
I know you have no need of me
You could snap your fingers or wink your eye
To make them all come running, a queue of ardent suitors
Each more charming, bolder and braver than I
Set with a smile and all the right lines
You could choose the one you want, selected from the crowd
Now knowing you had made a friend, quietly admiring
Forever saddened by a dream.
Whilst writing this I`m fearful of your first reading,
When moments of truth begin
I know time carries off our chances as it races by
I`ve taken back this time for us
For more I fear a future lost if this secrets never told.
I have no words of burning passion
Nor love nor of devotion; these thoughts I`ve not allowed
It`s just a wish to get much closer
A hope to get so near to you
And free of all my fear.
A Duel of Delight and Desperation
